irony.

AC2B (click me)
studio version (click me to listen)

taken hours after it was done

well holy shit. maybe i'm psychic, or maybe the world does crumble together when you least expect it. i got these lyrics tattooed on my back well before my addiction became full circle. originally, i decided on these words to be permanently inked on my back because a) it's one of my all time favorite songs by b) one of my all time favorite bands, the disco biscuits. there were no other reasons than just those. but now i look at them, and i'm just like fuckin christ - i should have known then of what my life would become. do you remember when you were little and you would play the telephone game? well, if you do remember, you probably also remember that the last message relayed was never anywhere near what the original message was. that same outcome happens when people talk about what they "know". so many people talk about my life, and the life of others, as if they are in fact the actual person they are speaking of. to put it nicely, fuck off - you don't know my story, or the story of others, you only know your story. everyone is entitled to a copy written version of their autobiography. and faster than i've ever swam, i am doing one hell of a butterfly stroke to the promised land. i've been searching so hard for it that sometimes i forget what i'm searching for, and i need to take a step back and just live in today, even if tomorrow is where i want to go. things have not been what they seem to be, i was a prisoner in my own skin, and now i am free from my worst enemy: myself.  for the first time, my boss saw my tattoo the other day as i was wearing a bareback shirt, and she asked me what the lyrics meant to me. now, i'm obviously not about to get into the nitty-gritty details of my past with my boss, but i did leave an impression with her that they were more than just words scribbled on my back. they are a melody to the beat of my life. i figured that was enough for her to know. i let her run with her imagination. she probably thinks that i am felon, spent a great deal of time in prison, got released from behind bars, ate a lot of acid, and now i am convinced that i am swimming in a sea towards never-never land.

i'm not sure if jon (barber) gutwillig's meaning to the lyrics are anything close to how i have interpreted them and put them into relation to my personal life, but that's the beauty of words - their connection is unique to each individual. i don't even really want to know what the real background is behind the lyrics, because i'm afraid it will ruin my interpretation of them. being that these words are forever established on the entirety of my back, i'd prefer to be satisfied with my own understanding of them.

i'd also like to apologize for posting a studio version of this song, it was the only decent sound quality and full version i could find on youtube. for those with biscuit virgin ears, go listen to some live downloads.